Friday 12 November 2010

How long.....has it been...

I haven't written for a while because I've felt stuck. Not because my spiritual world has become dry but because everything spiritual I read resonates and I do not know where to start. I am noticing more and more how spiritual reflections of different kinds are becoming more and more common on such social networking sites like Facebook and Twitter. The consciousness is definitely shifting that is so obvious to me.

I have also been quiet because I have been reading 'The Spiritual Brain' by Dr Mario Beauregard and Denyse O'Leary and it is without doubt the easiest to read and understand academic book on this subject that I have ever read. The greatest shock for me from all the research done by neuroscientists is that I can no longer get away with that all of the spiritual experiences I have had is the result of any over active right brain. This is not true. Spiritual experiences involve both sides of the brain as every study to-date has shown and this discovery has really shocked me. I do not consider myself particularly spiriutal. I am the most ordinary woman that you could meet so for me to have been given the grace to have the permanent current of bliss, ease and contentment that I have without a physiological reason as I had thought for so long has really moved me and I am now allowing myself to feel blessed and emotional about it all. I am also incredibly grateful to this Divine Presence for its patience with me being like a dog with a bone desperate to prove that spiritual experiences could be reduced down to overactivity in the right side of the brain. I have now been forced to accept by the weight of scientific evidence that they are not.

So now what to do. There is no point in me writing another book. Everything that I can say has been said before. That is the thing there is nothing new to be discovered on the spiritual path. The ultimate revelation that what we take to be real and permanent is not and that the REAL hides within the unreal is not new. I am so excited to be starting my training to be a kundalini yoga teacher in December because it is here that I see a platform for what I know from my experience. I have experienced the powerful energy that rests at the base of all of our spines. I understand and have experienced the energy release from all of the seven chakras. It is amazing that until this experience I didn't believe in the chakras. I thought that they were something made up to make lots of money from and then innocently on one meditation retreat I was on I was given a full experience of energy rising through these different chakras. So being a kundalini yoga teacher where I work with people on freeing the blocked energy in these chakras so that the kundalini energy can move safely and naturally from the base of the spine to the top of the head where in Indian mythology Shiva meets Shakti is where I am going to focus my energies from now on.

When I start the teacher training I will write more often because it is a journey that I will want to document as fully as I can and I just love to write this blog when there is something of importance to say. Training to be a yoga teacher is going to be different to the training I have done to date with Landmark Education. I am an intellectual seeker so I have to reason out my shifts in consciousness. Others are devotees and can do the spiritual path on trust and devotion alone. This has not been my path. I question and it will be interesting to see how my approach to this path goes down with my spiritual teachers. One thing I know from experience of progression on this path is that it doesn't come from sticking doggedly and riggedly to one philosophy or faith. It only comes when one is willing to move from what's certain to that which is uncertain....

I begin my teacher training on the weekend of December 4th so if I don't write again rest assured that I will write following this weekend....